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To Have a Part of You

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You liked Rap and Pop and Rythm
And I can only stand certain songs
You liked fashion, glam, and glitter
but I couldn't stomach the thongs

You were glamourous and fabulous
And I'm comfortable in grace
You were always 100 miles an hour
But I moved at an easier pace

You were vibrant and so full of life
and I guess I was in another way

You are a boy (Surprise!)
I am a girl...

And I miss you every day.

Sometimes I lose myself in a downward spiral
and sometimes I can't even hold in the tears
Sometimes I can't stand the sound
and sometimes I'm lost in the words in my ears

Now I listen to your stupid music
I find myself eyeing the clothes you loved
I'm moving just a little bit faster
But only slightly past a slug

These are the things I do
The things I've begun to start
Just to have one more part of you
To hold precious in my heart

If you could come home one last Christmas
First I'd be in shock
Then I'd be overjoyed
and keep you in cherished stock

But that isn't an option
No matter how hard I wish
So I'm left to drown in sorrow
like a suffocating fish

But I thank you for the music
and for the happy memories
always in the back of my thoughts
our smiles and laughter dancing

I hope one day we'll meet again
Maybe I wont judge you so readily
May god hold you tight till I get there
May the angels lead you in steadily

And may everyone else remember
To say "I love you" to those who need it most
To hope for the best in everything they do
and when their gone; to pray for their ghost
Thinking about my cousin... this came out while I was listening to one of his CDs.

It's been a little more than two months... and it's still hard. Maybe even a bit harder. This will be our first Thanksgiving without him... I'm not looking forward to it.

EDIT: I split up some verses to make them rhyme more. I think its better now and capture more raw emotion from my heart.

-sighs- going on three months now. Here comes Christmas.
Fucking Killjoy.
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Aubrey-Tate's avatar
Wow, I feel like I'm the guy on this side of this, except its the girl who died.
Like, I want her back so bad, and I am just realizing that she really did die and this isn't some bad joke or bad dream. And its just so hard.